I usually hate New Year's resolutions, however this year, as I go through a lot of re-evaluating in my life, mindfulness needs to be at the forefront.
1. Focus more on what I have and less on what I want.
This goes for the obvious in regards to material objects. However, I want to be mindful of this concept on a deeper plane going forward in 2018. There's this bizarre pressure in my mind to always be taking on some new project and that I am never doing enough. 2017 saw me getting so into so many things and pushing forward into them all so much that to a certain extent I missed out on what's right in front of me. End of the day, I am intelligent and capable with a great job, family and boyfriend. Ambition caused some of these relationships to suffer and in 2018 I hope to balance that voice in my head that says I'm letting myself and everyone in my life down if I don't do "____" thing.
2. FINALLY stop worrying at my cuticles.
This is a habit I have had for literally as long as I can remember. It's some sort of anxiety manifestation, but I pick at my cuticles and it's gross and unnecessary (especially since I just signed with a modeling agency that might want me on for hand modeling). This is something I am insecure about and I need to stop. Enough said!
3. Manage my time more efficiently.
Right now, my life is pretty hectic. I am a person that can thrive and enjoy a certain level of chaos, but I am right at the cusp of how much I can handle with my time split in thirds between KC, Johnny and working at my family's farm. At the risk of exposing how lame I really have been in the past, I must admit I've never had as wide a circle of friends and acquaintances as I do now. In 2018 I am challenging myself to create boundaries and priorities to make sure I am spending my time with those who nourish my soul and to ensure that I don't get spread too thin.
I am stopping at three resolutions. Each of these things are going to be challenging enough for me! Cheers to a great 2018 for us all!